i think way down deep in his head he feels like he doesn't deserve to have sex with me. i think that is the main issue more than anything else, but this man is NOT THRU playing the BLAME GAME - he is still blaming everyone else on earth for his problems in life
albeit that the worlds keeps getting smaller and smaller - but until he comes to the conclusion that HE IS RESPONSIBLE for his own actions, i don't think he has the comprehension of dealing with me
and quite honestly, the question "what would i be doing different if i was divorced" always comes up in my mind. i know for SURE ellie that i will not remarry, not at least as long as my daughter is in my care. i will NOT have a step father for her, no how no way. i know what it is like to be a step and to have steps, and i will NOT do that to her, i will SACRIFICE MY LIFE to attain that desire.
now to answer your ? about it being me to have to tell him that i am willing for a new r? yes darlin, i have told him - not lately - but he knows that i am here for the long haul - the last r talk we had i told him, i wasn't going anywhere, that i realized he had issues and that i was here when he was either a) ready to discuss them or b) ready to move on with our lives as husband and wife, but that i love him much and will wait for him
that was oct 31 - we havent had a r talk since then
