I know I deserve more Bug. Unfortunately I still believe H would give it to me if he could, he's just broken and I can't fix him. I could walk away if I didn't see flashes of what could be when we are together but at the same time I don't know whether I can stand waiting for him to find him Self and step up.
I feel like I pushed it all again onto my timeline Rushing around with my panties in a bunch I have behaved just like i did all the other times - been too impatient and gone rushing in where even angels fear to tread. I've got to STOP initiating! We know he will get in contact eventually. We've done this experiment before.
I thought i was off the ride but this was the hidden plateau before the next loopdeloop
