Not If He Came Gold Plated!

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Hey Beatrice!

I spent the first year of this debacle hoping my X would want to work on our M. I was ready to listen, he never talked. And I believe General P will probably work it out with his wife. I am completely past hope for myself. My X is completely addicted to the OW drug.

My oldest son posted something on FB, and asked me to Share it. I did. Then he expressed that he hoped OW would see it and say something to X, thus proving she is still stalking me. I told him, rather sadly, that I really didn't care what his dad thinks anymore. Because OW is like a drug, and he is so deeply enthralled there is nothing to do but say "Oh Well!"

My X has made fun of people we know who are drug-addicts. I have always felt sorry for them. I saw an aunt die young (58) when I was in the 8th grade. She smoked and drank herself to death. It made a big impression on me. I never took up smoking. I went through a drinking too much phase in my mid to late 20's. The military seems to encourage drinking.

I don't drink very often, or very much now days. And I try to give up Diet Coke, and the hold it has me is so strong that just writing it made me get up and go get one....... So I will not make fun of folks who can't get past their addictions. I just know I will never try drugs, because they sure do seem to get ahold of people.

And reading about affairs and drugs, they both send an avalanche of Dopamine into our brains. So, yep, the man I married is no better than a drug addict. Maybe even worse, because at least some of my drug addict friends and family have admitted they had a problem and went to rehab. (I know I said I wouldn't make fun of them, I just couldn't resist.) I must be addicted to sarcasm.

I need to send in my resume, I was offered another different OJT through the VA. The job I was promised decided I was too old and probably don't know how to use a computer. They never even met with me or even spoke to me on the phone. It makes me sad. I build my first web site in 1995. I took computer classes in 1992 because I didn't want to be left behind, I saw the internet and knew it was going to be life changing.

I keep thinking the right thing will work out for me. Sure wish it would happen sooner than later!