Went home for lunch and forgot wife was there (day off). She was on phone (with her cousin who just finished her 2nd divorce). She didn't hear me walk in and I heard her say "maybe that's why we marry idiots". I didn't let on that I heard anything when she eventually saw me in kitchen and we did our small talk but for some stupid reason it got in my head and I can't stop thinking about it. I know rule 32 but knowing my wife 20 years now I've never heard her talk badly about me with someone else. Obviously we've had our share of fights and I'm on these boards so I'm sure she has (and God knows I've done the same in the past) but I've never actually heard it. I guess ignorance is bliss because I never really even thought about it before; probably due to the inflated ego I had before this sitch. It just sucked to hear it come out of her mouth. I know in big picture it's nothing, I shouldn't let it get to me, and a lot of you guys hear worse daily but for whatever reason I can't get it out of my head this afternoon. The real job is to stay cool tonight when we're home together all night and not make something out of nothing. Just another blow to my already deflated ego. Guess I need to get used to it on this marathon I'm on. Humility is a good lesson I've learned from this experience. This ride has me on such an emotional roller coaster, I feel like I've turned into a woman (no disrespect to anyone, I was just a guys guy with a touch of sensitivity before all this happened).
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
