Heather, Do you have a Plan B for tonight? You can't rely on an mlcer to be there for you.
As for texting, don't do it. It's like an addiction for us and we want to text just to let them know we are still here for them....it might make you feel better to do so, but it only sends they further away from us.
The young lady who created the Hero's Spouse forum use to post on this forum. So, you may see some of the advice that we provide here on her site as well.
Keep your expectations at zero and you will not set yourself up for disappointment.
I do hope that you can get out of the house this evening...but you need to start thinking about having a Plan B just in case he doesn't show up or do the things that you would like for him to do.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.