ellie, i really appreciate you spending time to help me thru this
as a matter of fact, yes, i am still holding him to things he said months ago, because there have been things that i have tried since then that shows to me that he is not ready (in his head) to commit to me. if you look back on my last thread there was even a period of time where even my slightest touch would send him realing.
so i have been trying little things here and there to see where he stands, but he is way too messed in the head to venture into this land yet. we have only just recently developed back into good friends where he feels comfortable telling me things, that is a great big improvement
awhile ago (sept/oct) he had a problem with a bladder stone, he passed it and had a conversation with his dad about it and his dad told him go get his "jewels" checked cause some serious damage could have happened
he made the comment to me after he got off the phone that he wanted to tell his dad, "i hope if falls off cause the damn thing has gotten me in so much trouble i don't need it anymore"
so you see what i am dealing with? the man has issues, long and hard and deep issues that really don't stem from ME but he has to work them out on his own
btw - he is bipolar, and not on meds (another thing is that the meds are to blame for his affair according to him, that they made him so blase that he didn't care)
so we are not dealing with generalities at this time, so all i really have is time with this guy cause i believe he wants to do the right thing ultimately, he just has to work things out in his head before we can cross that bridge
