You know... Re-reading the "Birthday" posts and thinking it over a bit more...
Maybe by me NOT doing anything tomorrow, that is indeed the biggest gesture of "I'm moving forward with or without you" that I can possibly give... Because in the darkness here, I doubt she's getting any sort of signs of my progress (as I've eschewed social media for a while now and we have exactly zero mutual acquaintances which we BOTH talk to still).
But man, it's just so hard to not do ANYTHING, knowing that it may really hurt her to not hear from me... And no matter what type of progress, detachment or dropping of the rope that I do, I'll never want to do something (or not do something) to intentionally hurt her or her feelings...
Also, on an ever-important side note: I'm doing a TERRIBLE job at one of my 180s: Being strong in my decisions and not wavering... I've got to work harder on that one.
