right now, he has too many issues he is dealing with, and i for one cannot have sex without love so i will continue to wait. i will not force him into anything he is not ready for
and plus, i don't think i am ready for the rejection, should there be one
i will not jump from not even getting a peck on the lips in the last 8 months to giving this man a blow job, sorry, but that is not in my psyche
i think i feel more comfortable to letting him lead this dance, even tho i complain about it a ton (if you follow my sitch) i know deep in my heart i want him to ml to me only when he is good and ready to commit to me and this marriage
