sorry to be blomming allover your posts- i agree. it's easy to be "together" in every single aspect of your life- but this loss of love would lay anyone "low". i'd think you're normal. (but- you know me- so consider the source)
i think just communicating with h - even if it's a rant- feels "better". i've experienced it myself. even an awful exchange- feels better than nothing at all. i'm still trying hard "not to go there". i say sh_tty comments- i'm trying to stop. theyslip out- he overlooks them- i cannot totally hide my inside anger & opinion of "this all". i cannot even tell if it makes a diff- tho book says it registers with h and makes him feel unloved(?) and unapproved of, etc. we miss the human companionship (particularly of our old "loved one" - is that so bad of us? everyone alive needs it -
oh well- we are human beings doing our level best in a crap situation. you're doing good i'd think- it's painful t5o let go- it's like having to have your leg amputated (i like that leg- it helps me move around in life) and then finding out you've got to do it yourself with a dull plastic knife. it's hard - it's tough- and there's never a good time.
i tell myself this junk- i think it's true- i hope it's true- there is some strength inside me(us) i've seen it sometimes- it's easier to be strong for someone else- hardest of all for yourself.
REMEMBER YOU TOLD ME- BEUNDERSTANDING AND TREAT YOURSELF LIKE YOU'D TREAT YOUR BST FRIEND- NOW DO IT- BE KIND AND UNDERSTANDING TO YOU.
STOP thinking and go walk- i'm going to also. xxoo ((( ))
