Made it through yesterday--felt a lot of pain, but I'm still here and tutoring this morning. Feel a little better. Dreamt about H and OW. In my dream, I went over to their apt--she was home but didn't know I was there--stayed in her bedroom. I found H's phone and couldn't resist looking at their text messages. I was afraid but looked anyway and was somewhat pleasantly surprised at how shallow their relationship was--OW sent a lot of texts about football and weird boring stuff-at least to me. Then, I notice he had given her something on Sweetest Day but it was really lame--some horrible, cheap jewelry that I would never accept-like something he got in the drugstore. I also noticed two empty card envelopes. Partly it hurt because there was more to the relationship than I thought and partly it was a relief because it wasn't the relationship that I had with H.

Hurting today, angry-ANGRY at how I was treated last week--teased and hurt again. But, not hurting as much as yesterday.

Heather

"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man

“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson