hrm, I'm so sorry you were having emotional moments yesterday, but your friend is right...you are human! Those moments catch us at the oddest times, but that's okay, your pastor was there to support you, just as your friend was too.
You had a beautiful day to hike and I'm sure you got plenty of fresh air and exercise. Please be careful hiking that far and especially w/the days being shorter. You could have fallen or worse, someone could have come upon you and done bodily harm.
Your h appears to be settling down a bit w/his crazy behavior. That was very nice of him to have the porch light on and the decorations down. One less thing you had to worry about.
Enjoy your shopping today and pick up something extra special for yourself. I don't know which day is your birthday, but I'm going to send you greetings today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.