Well, it's true that I am focused on H at the moment. But I got some good GAL in - the party last week and the movie last night.

One thing I noticed was that my anger has dissipated enough after that talk on Friday for me to want to be physical with him again. This morning we cuddled in bed for an hour, though as you know it is not reciprocated. It's not exactly like being with a dead fish but I would call him "frigid" at this point (although he does seem to enjoy it). When I crawled into the bed, he asked me how my night was and we had a nice talk for an hour. This is a 180 because we didn't used to spend a lot of one on one time together.

I told him that we should focus on talking things over as they happen so that resentments don't build up again... He said ok, though who knows... I also said I thought the physical time was good for us both.

Lo and behold, he delivered today. Cleaned up the backyard, got rid of some trash that had been piling up, got those few things at the hardware store, helped S8 clean his room. I was impressed and told him it all looked great.

Never mind that I found an unpaid parking ticket from July that was now into triple fines...never mind that...


Me54, H53
M 23, T 25
S20, S18
BD: April 2024
Moved out: August 2024

Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.

"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page