The green green grass of home

[subguy]

Thank you Ruby, UF and Tumbling.

I have been fearing Christmas and the holidays. Trying to keep hope that we will be working things out by then. That is most unlikely to happen.

I need to fully accept my sitch and the fact that this will be our first Christmas/holiday season as a family of divorce. I need to face the fact that i will be sharing my children on Christmas day and during the holiday season. It's going to hurt and it's going to be hard but we will get through it.

Yes it's gonna hurt me as well, guess we will have to support each other during those times.

I have been fighting myself over weather to send him a email telling him i do want to get back together but how it i felt about it.
Had i just said yes i do, what would that have been telling him? That is okay to treat me like that? Well it's not okay.

Good for you, you are not a door mat. You are someone special with feelings and value.