So I talked to this friend who tried to help H. He is a spiritual person so he thinks he has some ways to make H be aware of what danger he is getting himself into. But this friend is not saying he would try to get H to come back to me. ( I don't think anyone would be able to at this point anyway). I'm not really comfortable with him going. It's like I feel more comfortable having no contact with H than knowing that someone is going to "help" him.
He said he has good intension. But I know for sure the good intension didn't work, at least for me. So I kept asking him to make sure the H doesn't think it's me who sent him there. He said he would not make H think that way. But who knows, my H is crazy right now.
Plus, H seems to avoid contact with this friend, although they used to be REALLY good friends. So I don't know how H is going to react. I'm kinda scared of H resenting me more after this visit.
But again, I can't control anything. This friend feels the need to visit H. So, I really can't stop him from going. Sigh, this gets complicated to me, maybe it will make it easier for H to hate me more...That's not my problem anymore I suppose.
I guess if I could let the bad past go, I should also be able to let the good past go. Look forward to a good future where I am comfortable with myself.
