Had a good day today. Went to church for the first time in a long time, and my w actually came with us. She also talked about the plans for going next Sunday as well. I did get a call from her this afternoon regarding the terms of the D though. Maybe spending a hour at church with me was too much. Had to go back to the castle.
It is okay though, I have accepted my sitch in its current state. The pastor gave a interesting sermon about "the space between." Basically he stated that when you have a decision to make, but you are unsure, you are in "the space between." It is more important to make the decision and not live in fear of the potential consequences of the the unknown outcome of said decision. He also talked about when Jesus promised his disciples reward for standing by him. But he didn't say when the rewards would come. There is the patience part of life again. Our rewards for doing what we do might be our spouses, or it might just be the realization that happiness is a choice, and the reward of changing ourselves into better people.
I found it very interesting how much of our journeys related to the sermon. I am admittedly not a person of strong faith. Hopefully I will continue to find more strength in the coming weeks. Strength in all aspects of my life.
I have noticed that lately my w has been pretty cold to me in person, but on the phone she seems like the person I used to know. Anyone else experience this?
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