Sweet MKB, you will get over this. Trust me. You will have good days and even great days again.

When I'm in a funk I sometimes remember to remind myself that my mental states inevitably change just as the weather inevitably changes. You know that about the weather, right? It's the same with your feelings.

By the way, your last post is very poetic and you write in a really evocative way. I've had days when I feel just the way you've described how you feel today so far.

Hang in there and I'm sending you a virtual hug as you're sitting there.

Me: 51
H: 52
T: 23 yrs
M: 19 yrs
S18, D16, S14 (special needs)
PA: 2003/2004
Piecing: 2004 on
Suspect H had EA: 8/2012-12/2012