first time need help - still (new thread?)

[albamarie]

Love junkie, love junkie, hey hey! THat's me! WHat a great tune that would make.

I think the one thing we can agree on is we want/need the person they were, we still love the person they were, and we struggle with knowing their not there now/anymore.

So how to fix it/me - time - dbing - all the other magical words of wisdom combined. Yes, no, probably hopefully! But, there is always going to be a tidbit, morsale of pain, regret, sadness, not sure which one yet, that will always remain inside of my heart that hurts my sole just a pinch.

So how do I move on is still the big question of my life. I really think it's harder with him here, but there's nothing to do about that. So I have to figure a way for me to get out from under my own weight.

I need something new! Your lucky to have some babies around you. I haven't held a baby in yrs and now she wouldn't even know me. I am going to try my hardest again to not be down, or angry, and really try to get out more.

Winter is not my friend, but I guess we don't have a shortage of coffee shops here. I am thinking of a vacation, alone, maybe just a few days, it would be good for me to step back.

Enjoy your good weather, I envy people who can move house to house. I think it's important in life to move your a$$ and see new surroundings. I'm so sick of giving my H soo much attention, yet I can't stop, i'm a junkie, hoping for that one time it will work and he will magically be right!

NO not really - I know better - he's so ugly to me - I think I am an answer junkie - why did you do this to us!

Today's a beautiful fall day in the tree lined suburb I live in with 50+yr old trees swaying in the warm wind. SO I need to get one some old jeans, a hoodie, grab the dog, and get outside. I love Sunday's - wish we could freeze time!