Thank you labug! I changed my username once, and for this one, I just think I had too much trash in my "bag", I want to get it out, and maybe fill it with stars....
My situation is a bit weird right now. I met my H when i was in college back in my home country. I moved to the states with him after we got married for awhile. It was a huge change for me. I do not have family here and my good friends are not in my city right now. I'm getting my master's degree the end of this year, and I'm staying at his parents' house right now. I do not have a car, although I can use my in laws'. It is not that convenient. My H basically just left me here at the in-laws.
I feel so lonely here and I'm scared. Our original plan was to graduate and find jobs together somewhere good for both of us. But now, I'll have to find a job somewhere myself and then move there. I have the fear that we will never be in the same city or even country again. Although, now like you said, he moved on it seems like, so he probably doesn't care where I'll be working or what not.
I do want our M to work again, the same time, the fear of us never being together again makes me so scared of doing anything. I feel silly as I'm writing down how I feel....
So, Basically, I should just live like he is not coming back, and work on graduating and getting a job somewhere, without talking about any of it to him?
