Thank you so much!!! Just A Guy! My mind goes crazy from time to time. And I did spend too much time obsessing on my H. Thanks for sharing your experience and talk to me. I assume this is what I need to calm my crazy mind and once again start to focus on myself! I feel like I am weak. Like I read posts here and read the book, but when it comes to my situation again, I surrender to my weakness. Then I just start to question why why why..... Thanks for your help. I feel better and yes, I'll keep trying to focus on myselfff!