Star, you really need to find things to do. It sounds like you have waaaaaay to much free time to obsess about H.

This was how I was in the beginning stages of my sitch, and its hard to figure out what to do especially since you hurt and don't FEEL like having a good time...

My biggest realization was that I was only robbing ME by wallowing in pity and misery, that just like I had told W that our M is a choice she can make MY happiness is a choice I can make as well..

As soon as I started to focus on myself I felt better. I still have a LONG LONG LONG road but I know now more than ever that I will be okay..

You will be amazed at how different life looks wehn you get the first glimpse of detaching..

((((()))))

Me - 30
W - 28
M 4
t 6
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