Originally Posted By: Grateful
I wasn't there as the head of the household, spirtual leader, etc.

Big clue!!!

Originally Posted By: Grateful
Now, I want to be there, and I can't.

And before you start in with "but she won't let me now ..."

You don't need her for you to be a leader.

Everybody hurts. It's part of life. Don't miss the good stuff.