Stop this crazy train I want to get off!!!

[wishing, hoping]

And so H wants to go to the annual Christmas parade with us today. So we put on the dog and pony show and act one big happy family. He even sets up our chairs so we sit by each other. He wanted us all to ride together in his vehicle and I declined. I told him I would drive myself. I think that ticked him off.

And whenever I was talking to a friend H was close at hand. All my friends were giving me looks like "what's going on?" to which I just shrugged and said IDK.

So it becomes more and more clear to me that H wants to continue his life business as usual just replacing me with OW. Sorry but that stings. It stings a lot.