The crack in my separated life...

[Sweetbriar]

I know he is miserable...he has pretty much confirmed that. Im sure he is still getting lots of support from OW, but mostly he is sad.

I found out tonight after D14 casually mentioned...that H is getting a part time job along the same lines as what he does now. He told D he will be moving back to our city soon if everything works out. Its still amazing to me to what lengths he will go to run farthur and farthur away from me. He wont just come back home and work things out..instead he will work another job and struggle. He will give up seeing his kids everyday too...

I guess Im just sad tonight that I found that out. Not that I dont want him to succeed, but I just want him to wake up one day and I feel like the more things he does like this its just more and more final:( Maybe Im wrong...but thats how I feel tonight!

I was at the mall with the girls and I got secretly sad with all the holiday stuff out now. How am I going to survive Christmas??? Made me wanna call him that moment and ask WHY??

Accuray..thanks for pointing out the positives for me:) I appreciate it!