Thoughts? Yes, many. Here's the thing. He is conflicted. You didn't blow it by having your emotions. You just lost sight of what's going on and you're human and have needs, emotions, wants.
What you may want to try and do, although it's not for the faint of heart, is to not fight about it. But rather to just listen and validate at this stage. He needs a safe place to express these emotions and you should be that safe place. This is a critical point if you ask me. This is where the connection can become very strong with you. But it doesn't happen quickly. And it doesn't happen smoothly. But if you can listen without expressing judgement, I think you'll find he'll open up even more.
I don't think you should let him back into the house to live at this point. He may try to push it, but stick to your guns. If he really wants back, he'll make the sacrifices to make that happen. Otherwise, it's just more of his conflict.
Let your daughters work out the relationship with their father as they do. That's part of his journey and you can't be part of that right now.
Make sense?
Hang in there. It gets bumpy from here on out
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
