Its so hard not initiating when I feel that he is feeling sorry for him Self. I want to reach out a friendly hand but I can't.
I've done me ap for the job now. I will send it on Monday. Fingers crossed for an interview in December.
I keep thinking about Christmas and that I want to spend it with H. It was horrible being apart last year. I have to book my flight soon if I am going to fly to my mom's. I want H to come with me but I know that we won't be sorted enough for that even if he comes closer between now and then.
