Thanks SoulSearching and Busting. Back on my blanket - it was an emotional crawl but I am here now. I was doing very well focusing on becoming more grounded in CGness until H and I hung out and he kissed me. I wish we didn't have good times together when we do see each other.
Writing a new CV about what a talented person I am has helped. I am having a day to my Self writing this job ap letter, reading some whale mgmt books, emailing friends and packing for next week. I might even get to the gym..?
I know staying on the CG (GAL) track is best for me and that unless H attaches his carriage to my engine (so to speak) then there is no relationship.
I have also learned my lesson on reaching out which was effectively shouting at the castle walls. New motto "If you put your hand in the fire Tumbling, you get burnt."
I am now keeping my hands to my Self! Leaning back with hands in pockets
