Zig, Many many hugs. I don't have much to respond except that I'm glad you're back. And you can get yourself out of this rut and back to your normal happy self again.
Take care friend ;-)
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017