Stop this crazy train I want to get off!!!

[wishing, hoping]

By the way, he's only saying all those things because HE feels guilty and HE wants to feel better about himself. He's very insincere.

Thanks Mr. Bond. He had me in his corner up until the very last line of the letter which read something to the effect of "if we aren't careful we stand to lose a lot." I am sure he is scared about what he will be required to give me and is starting to wonder about how all this is going to affect his bottom line when it is all said and done. I knew it was manipulation. And I ALMOST fell into the trap. Almost! Then I Pulled myself out of dysfunction junction, grounded myself and was calm and cool in my replies to him. He was not expecting that.

I am a different woman than I was 5 months ago. I am stronger and I am more self assured and I know his real intentions. I am so sick and tired of him trying to get me to buy into his bad behavior and trying to get me to accept it as okay. It's not okay. I will never say it's okay.

For a split second that line about "I have no romantic feelings for you" started bringing back the sadness and the self doubt. I am proud of myself for staying grounded.