Wow, Tumbling. I think you started to pursue too much. I know it must be tough, but you need to stop texting good morning/good night if you want to see a real turnaround. At least that's what I see from an outsider's point of view.
As far as the EA...you'll have to be careful to not get yourself even more confused. I can see you love your H and want to save your M. Maybe find a female friend to trust instead?
Hope you get a good night's rest, and sorry you've been through such range of emotions.
