Amazing....keep on the path , keep working on you. I know you say you shouldn't care, but you do, and that is perfectly normal, otherwise you wouldn't be here, right?
Lots of people never ever get a chance to complete this journey, even on here a lot of us( me included) struggle everyday with the whys and the what does this mean etc. doesn't mean we are failing it only means we are human.
We love, we hurt, we get angry and scared, but me? I wouldn't trade it for anything