I have been having the overwhelming push/urge to talk to my FIL lately. Th feeling will come out of no where and it is so intense. My MIL passed away 10 years ago, we were close. I haven't spent a lot of time with my FIL for the past few years. My family doesn't know that my H is not living at home or not speaking to me and our Ds. Neither did my FIL.
Yesterday, the feeling was so consuming that I called him to see if he was home. I drove 40 minutes to his house and told him everything. I told him the mistakes I have made and that fact that this man who he thinks is his son, is someone totally different.
When I told FL that H had an affair, he informed me that he cheated on MIL back in '75!!!!!! No one knows this. My H and his brother don't know. I saw the pain in FIL eyes, it was unbearable for me to see him like that. I know he was devastated about his S and it brought back what he had done to his W. We talked for a couple of hours.
On my way home, I cried most of the way. I have been talking to my MIL in heaven ever since this has started. I go outside every night and look up to the sky and pour my heart out to her. Two nights ago I asked her for help, pleaded to her for help of what I should do. Now I understand why I had such powerful feelings to talk to MIL. She was wanting me to go talk to her husband. She wanted me to share with him and for him to release some of his pain. It was such an unbelievable moment. My FIL NEVER talks about personal stuff, not even with his Ss. He rarely has anything to say, very quiet man. BTW.....H is exact same age as FIL was when he had his affair!
He poured his heart out to me and I held his hand and listened. I know what people mean now when they say that some good comes out of this horrible situation. I never believed it, until last night.
My angel is watching over me and guiding me. I thank The Lord that she is still there for me and helping me thru my life.
