Wendy, I think that the time away has done you a world of good and the rose colored glasses have finally been removed completely. Your journey has had many ups and downs, and yet, you've continued to move forward and shared your thoughts and feelings w/us.
I do believe that God has a special plan for you. You are an inspiration to all of us, not just the forum, but the real world as well.
BTW, I wouldn't take my xh back even if he laid golden eggs!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
