The Lure of the Siren

[Arsene]

I am just heading out Arnse. But you did not understand what I asked you.

I asked you about hiding yourself from her. Pretending that it is not ripping you apart on the inside. Always being upbeat and happy to see her when it is the furthest thing from the truth. Not letting her know how it ruining your heath and you are on anti-depressants so you can function day to day with her random drop-ins and D8's hurt and the consistent ongoing affair.
Nothing about shaming her in public. I do not know why you keep going back to that train of thought.

Is it because it made you uncomfortable so you had to deflect?

This is what DB recommends CB. I don't think that her seeing me sad and depressed and hurt is going to help my case in any way other than have her pity me, which I don't really want. I'm not acting "as if" to protect her CB, I'm doing it to protect myself in a way and to protect my D8 as well as to better my chances at making my W wonder if she is indeed doing the right thing. Again, that is what DB recommends. Is this what you are referring to?

Don't worry mate, I don't feel uncomfortable and didn't think I had deflected anything.