I wasn't trying to be insulting to him or insensitive to his desire for sex. My suggestion of masturbation was in response to him telling me that the bible says that my body is his body, and I need to at least give him maintenance sex so that he can exercise his equipment and make sure it keeps working. It's hard to even feel human in that context, much less like it's act act of love. My empathy for his need is waning greatly.
I think you earlier said you weren't a saint (paraphrase). I think otherwise. I think this part of your conversation made your point about what you see.
I suppose part of the question now is how the counseling will go, but I certainly understand better what your stress has been like. The conversations, the wanting reciprocation, etc. It seemed to coalesce at that point for me to better understand that you have years of this and must be tired. My heart and admiration go out to your for your efforts and not just walking away during this. I think it says a lot about you that you are still there and seem to have the door open a crack.
Peace,
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
