How to respond to this

[rubysgem]

Why is it he is being hostile? He is coming to talk tonight. I am not going to be emotional at all. I am going to state facts and let him know that I am giving up. And I do feel like it's time for me to do that for me. Enough is enough.

I am wondering though why he went from cheerfully telling me he's back to being confused about her... to accusing me of being a liar... to still not seeing she is toxic (how he can't after such a lie well.. ugh) to yesterday trying to convince me he still loves me (where I said I beleive absolutely nothing he says) and that he wouldn't be "calling" if he didn't want to work it out... to silence... to being snippy and not promising not to blow up on me (so I am expecting he will try and turn this) to saying OH SO THAT IS WHAT YOUR PLAN IS, when I said that I didn't think the break up talk should happen through texts or voicemails or on the phone...

Why is he so mad at me? Is it because I am forcing him to choose and he thinks if he just throws another tantrum I will back down and allow him to keep eating cake? I have given up. I mean, I do still love him so very much and I do still wish there were some way we can salvage this, but I also know that I am being taken advantage of and that he is not ever going to do anything but flop back and forth forever and I need to free myself because he never will let me go or get rid of her.

I have questions of how it led us back to here after he was trying to hard and being honest. I know it's because he refused no contact with her. I also know even today, he will probably let me go thinking I don't really mean it (I do, I see no other options) and he will go straight to her.

I already told him actions are the only thing I will respond to now. And his words and actions never line up. So in the event he wakes up (doubtful now) how long does that take? I really am feeling like if I don't get away now I will resent him and the damage that is being caused constantly by this will eventually be too much to repair. I am already feeling there is no more to do...

And again... why is he mad at me? If he wants to flip flop and be confused but just keep me as a backup plan why be so upset I am ready to let him go? I would think it's taking the pressure off him now and he'd be relieved that he gets rid of me and can have her all to himself with no more drama.