so i was doing good . we are separated living in different states i still love him this is all him walking away.

i have been so good about not being needy, saying i love you or anything it is hard to get a life back home at parents no job, no money coming in trying to find one feel like in limbo don't know if i should be treading water or moving on completely.

so sad all the time.

he had been calling every day then i went to visit new york was suppose to stay with him but he went mia so only saw him 4 day of 7 (jerk on his part since this was originally his idea) we slept together then he massively pulled away the next day.

didn't call for 5 days called once he said he was confused which i told him was fine but he didn't get to treat me like some girl he slept with and didn't want to call i am his wife and deserve better
last friday was his birthday called him to say happy birthday ended up saying I miss you wish i was there. and I love you

all no-nos i know haven't heard from him since. Now what do I do?

I appreciate the great advice AnotherStander

I do need to focus more on me letting go o fate fear and trying to hope for the best but planning on moving forward.

thank you everyone.

m: 32 H:33
T:7
M:4


7/12 says he might want out
8/12 find out about ow he wants a D
9/12 he says he loves me not here wants me back
9/12 he pull away
11/12 still separated