M, it is normal to feel like you do. And only you know what you can take and what you can't.
The reality is what it is. But here's the thing. I believe that you are the kind of person who sees things through. And either way you can choose to come out of this a stronger, better person.
I knew that I needed to know that I had done everything I could to save my marriage. I wanted to leave no stone unturned.
Dbing gives you tools to use in all parts of life and sometimes it saves marriages.
Either way you are better for it.
So, it's ok to feel what you feel. But then let the feeling wash over you and get back on your path.
