About my communication problems, I do really well writing out my thoughts and feelings for the most part.

Here I can delete, paste and copy, stop and think.

I can't do that in live conversation. And when it's an emotionally charged conversation I tend to say too much, keep digging for answers, sometimes lash out (hurting people hurt other people). I'm also uncomfortable with white space or silences in conversation. I feel like if I don't keep talking, the other person will leave and my chance is gone.

My brain freeze consists of not being able to process what I'm hearing and then respond appropriately. in. the. moment. I'm getting much better at it, believe me.

It's work but I'm grateful to have had the opportunity to become better at communicating with others. It was a great source of anxiety for me.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss