Back to Square One?

[Wendylon]

Thank you very much, Tori and MKB, for your advice.

The weird thing is that it's not really that I want to be physical with H, but I want him to show me that he cares. At this point, I'd go for any of the LL. Maybe he does care and I'm missing it.

Sometimes, I reassure myself by getting really basic and asking myself, "Where are H's feet?" He's at home so that has to mean something. Also, if he is still thinking that we should stay together until D15 moves out (and then assess the state of our M), it does give me a good 2.5 yrs to keep DBing.

I think if I were to touch H now, it would be too big a step. I need to fill in with some baby steps first. I think a bit of newness might be a good first step. I'll bring up that restaurant that H was so excited about.

Everything is still on an even keel between us which is a lot more than could be said a few months ago. I need to stay patient.