I am feeling stronger in my convictions every time I say them. H is starting to see my strength come through again telling me I have all the power if I just stop thinking on the lines of our M, and start doing what's best for me.
I am continuing to add to that mental note of what are my likes apart from my M. Also, thinking about what it is I want for myself, my kids, and our home.
I have so many ideas swimming around in my head that I want for myself. Most important I really want to laugh and be around friends. I really want to meet new people and open my mind to new possibilities.
It feels lighter to speak in this way and not feel so bogged down by h and all his drama just to be sad and disappointed.
I know I am on a roller coaster right now but one day the ups and downs will have to level off.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
