This is becoming so real and it hurts so much I wish I could sleep through this and wake up when the storms passed. Where is my bestfriend and my biggest supporter? I wish he'd wake up and see his destruction!!!
yes. Vent away.
Re-read some of those links. It'll help to see things differently. Know that you're hurting right now, but that information will make more sense later.
I agree with Snodderly - he can't look at you because of his own hatred for himself and self-loathing. They become like wounded dogs when that happens - want you to help, but will bite if you get close. He'll be that way with those he is closest to most likely.
Don't take it personally, no matter what you hear or see. I know that's not natural, but really it is the best way to go. You'll see that later in more detail.
You're hurting. It hurts deeply and you wonder all kinds of things. But for now, concentrate on you and your well-being and the well-being of your kids. It's very important while he's having a nutty (as my old friend used to say )
Peace, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
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