WAS vs. LBS

[mamabird]

Crazyville, I hope you do. I think we may have similar dynamics and I am looking forward to reading more of your story. You did say something that caught my eye and reminded me of me. You said that if someone came along at this point, you might not have the willpower to fight it.

In my sitch, someone came along, and all of a sudden I realized how unhappy I was (though it never went past EA). So I started as the WAW. Then we put a bunch of band-aids on and went along our merry way. Things got better. Then things got worse again. And OM2 came along. And by that time I was mad on top of feeling neglected. When H found out about OM2 (a meaningless texting thing), he flipped out and kicked me out, and called a L. Therefore I became the LBS.

I should have probably walked away long ago, but like others here, I was sort of in la-la-land and didn't have full awareness of what was going on or of my own feelings. My current feelings are that I want to TRY but don't have a lot of hope that my H can truly step up to the plate, accept responsibility for neglecting me and our M and start being ENGAGED in what's going on (other than the football game or work). I sense that same frustration in you.