Dealing with the reality of separation

[PeteWyo]

It's not over until YOU say it's over. You have a choice to make a this point - do you want to end the M or do you want to wait and see how the A plays out. It does say in DR that a lot of As have a 6 month lifespan.

I do have a lot of issues with this. I'm not sure what I really want here. I know that I believe in my M and I love my W. Well, as more time passes I have learned that maybe I love the idea of my W more than my W. I'm not sure that I ever really knew who she was. Hearing all the things that she said about me to her friends and family about me and never brought up to me is a bit hard to handle, especially when they weren't accurate. It is telling that all of "her" friends are now my friends. I come to find out that she told her mother that she doesn't understand why I can't just be friends with her and the OM. The OM was my "friend" and our other friend's fiancee, so we all know each other quite well. How delusional is that?! What fantasy world is she living in where she thinks that will ever happen? She will never be happy until she takes some time to work on herself. She shouldn't be dating or married to ANYONE right now. I am, or at least was, willing to stand by her side and help her work through her issues and our M. But if she thinks that this guy is the answer then I have no idea what is going on. She will figure that out, I have no doubt. It might take years and I am not sure I am going to wait around for that. While they are still doing their thing, her feelings will never change and I simply don't think I am willing to wait around for too much longer. There is someone out there that deserves me and I don't think it is my W at this point. Sorry, I am bitter today.