The Lure of the Siren

[Arsene]

Today didn't start off as a great day but it turned out ok in the end. I felt loads of anxiety and I wonder if it has to do with the fact that I missed 2 days of my A/Ds (Hunted doctor down for 4 days for a new prescription), and now I've been back on them for 2 days. Hopefully this won't happen again.

In the end, though, I used meditation techniques to get myself in a better place and I think it worked. I had to do it a few times during the day because the anxiety kept coming back but each time,I managed to chase it away.

I saw W when I got home. She spent the day with D8 (she usually picks her up on Wednesdays) and was leaving for work when I got here. She was very pleasant and talkative so I obliged her and talked a bit. She mentioned (in passing?) that she had read a blog I'd sent her by Jed Diamond on the Angry Men Syndrome. We'd talked about that over a month ago and I'd mentioned it because she had read other stuff by him and always said how she respected his opinion on stuff.

He writes a lot of stuff on how to deal with the man you love when he goes through this and his stance is on working together on the marriage. She told me she read it and said she thought her mom was going through that. I'm just happy she read it. It shows a certain curiosity about me.

Other small news, D8 told me tonight that lately when W calls her, she always asks about me. She said that W never used to do that. Again, probably means nothing but it's nice to know.

Meeting W again Tomorrow morning for yet another "immigration date". Will I be lured by her conversation? Should I join in if she initiates? I'll play it by ear.