Is it too late to DB?

[caigy72]

Yesterday I spoke to my L to arrange visitation agreement because this showing up when he feels like it is bs.

My L asked me about thanksgiving and christmas. We have always went to his parents for thanksgiving and had a big meal at christmas for everyone here. He'll have no problem asking for the kids thanksgiving knowing that I have no family here besides my kids, he'll also want them christmas day knowing that it is the 4th anniversary of my mums death.

This is becoming so real and it hurts so much I wish I could sleep through this and wake up when the storms passed. Where is my bestfriend and my biggest supporter? I wish he'd wake up and see his destruction!!!

Sorry for venting but I'm so weak right now.