Last night we were supposed to meet with her family for dinner. She missed her bus so S and I went with out her. She took a later bus home since there wasn't another bus to the restaurant.
When S and I got home she was pretty buzzed (slightly drunk...). She said she had three glasses of wine while waiting for another bus.
She gave me a brief/silly hug. We had a brief chat after S went to bed. I didn't talk much... I figured I'd let her run the conversation to see where it'd go, especially since she'd been drinking. She asked me if it felt weird when we went out on Saturday. She said it felt weird to her… like a first date. But she said it felt like I knew all of her annoying qualities… and that everything that other people would find attractive, I would find annoying. I said that wasn’t the case at all.
She made a comment completely out of the blue about being sexually frustrated. We haven't had relations in over a month. I have no idea what is going on with possible OM. I was impressed with myself for not even grabbing onto this statement. In the past I would have tried to use this comment to spin it into a physical evening. I immediately thought, "Why bother. That's just going to confuse things even more and make it more difficult for me." I happy with myself for making this decision.
We had planned to watch the election results. We sat on separate couches. She spent the majority of the time playing on her phone. She seemed to be on Facebook and texting a lot. I almost got up and walked out of the room. I was frustrated that we planned to watch the results together but she wasn't actually watching it WITH me. She was watching it with whomever was on the other end of her phone.
Going to bed was the opposite of the previous night. No physical touching. No "good nights."
M34 W35 S5 S2 T10 M6 on/off over the years including her A Recently- Nov 2015 bomb Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling Feb bomb March-April Reconciling May - bomb Mid-May I tell her I'm done
