I apologize for not posting on others threads. I am still reading just not sure I can offer anything of value. I have some pretty extreme anxiety today. Not sure why. It is more detaching I guess. I am trying to GAL. On my to do list today is my resume, elance profile, and then an in person application. Also, girls have BB tonight. The election has got me all in funk. Not because of the outcome or anything but I am very into politics. H is too. It is weird not having him to talk to or discuss it with. I also wondered if he missed it. I'm sure he did though. Old habits die hard. In my head, I know that the kids and I are better off without him. I am having a hard time convincing myself of that though. I guess this is where the detaching comes in. So this is going on day 3 of no contact. It is actually the longest we have gone since he left. I'm starting to really worry when he does it will be a big blow up. Again, likely just my anxiety. Who knows? Sure is a ride. Saw an interesting quote last night. I wound up printing it out. It said, "Sometimes God doesn't change your situation because he is trying to change your heart." Wow. How powerful is that? And how much can we LBS relate to that? I hope everyone has a good day.
