He's Just Not That Into You

[mamabird]

I'm at the point where I am done putting in work for a while. The books I'm reading now are more about happiness and self-fulfillment rather than how to repair a relationship. I need to take a break from the hardcore DB and just heal from this last major affront from my H. I am feeling rather done at the moment. Stick a fork in me.

H did contact me a few times today. First he emailed to ask if S8 was ok (he was sick yesterday), then he texted to ask if we were watching the election. He knows full well we were glued to the television watching it. S6 called him but I had no interest in talking to him, and have no interest in talking to him now. My only contact with him today was to ask him to tell me when he'd scheduled the appt with MC.

I've thought a lot about what you've been going through and haven't been able to think of how I would have responded, but not as well as you have. I would have been tempted to find where they were and make a scene.

Remember that I know exactly who this woman is and could call her or email her any time I wanted to and give her a huge piece of my mind. I know her first and last name, I know where she works, and I'm sure it wouldn't take much to find out where she lives. I could seriously F with her if I wanted to, but I always have to remind myself that I am the bigger person and I don't do those kind of things. Especially since H stooped really low and threatened OM2 and then made up that (unsent) email to my former boss telling him all the details of me and OM2, making it look like a "mistake". H does that kind of sh!t. I do not.

Hopeful, we've been in this together for months. And yes, it's totally frustrating that things seem to be going in the wrong direction. I have to say though that since my H pulled this last crappy stunt, I'm really and truly in a new place of detachment. I am probably not as tired as you are, but I'm completely emotionally burned out. There is not much left right now.