thank you everyone.. i guess the way i look at it is this.. bad stuff happens. yeah maybe more to me than others, but that is no excuse to not learn something and move on. i now know i have to be very very careful as d-day is coming. i figure if i keep doing my best, one day it will count for something. i cant remember exactly who said this to me, accuray maybe, that i can choose the person i want to be. i can be the old bitter lady at the salon or i can be a positive person. kind of a no brainer huh? well, i love life. i love people. i love my kids. i love myself. i am not going to be offended by the ranting and ravings of a person who is unhappy. it was not pleasant having this happen. in fact it was the worst thing i have ever dealt with. i did not lose my cool. yeah i cried. my world ws crushed. i cooperated and did what i had to. i believe it was because of my attitude and willingness to resolve it that helped it work out. i prayed so hard and my prayers were answered. there is a god, and he is in my corner. i actually recieved an apology from the detective. that blew my mind. as some of you know i have a pretty shady background and have never gotten nything like that from the law.. lol. kind of hard to be mad at him though. he was doing his job and had my D's best interests in mind. thank god there are people out there to protect children. i dont ask for pity, i dont ask for things to be given to me. i try my best and work hard. its working for me. after this the D should be a breeze! lmao..
anyway, thank you again to everyone and stay positive. the big lesson i am learning is i am my biggest enemy. if i defeat myself, then i truly lost. i used to think all the positive thinking talk was some hippie mumbo jumbo. i guess i was wrong. i still walk around with a smile on my face and love in my heart. for my kids, for my STBX, for life in general. thats the way i am CHOOSING to live.
