So, I've just packed the rest of her things except furniture.
For some reason she has left R stuff her. Romantic gifts from/to eachother.
I even packed her gifts to me, in her boxes.
I will probably give it to her in a couple of days when she drops by.

Not b/c I want her to throw it away, but what good is it here?
I don't need material stuff to remember the good times.
I don't want material stuff to remind me of these bad times.

It feels weird, a bit sad and I ask myself if it's the right thing to do right now.
It feels like waste. Why are we not trying one last time? Could we fix things?
The more I detach, the more I feel bad for S. I feel like I'm giving up when I shouldn't.

I know though, she doesn't want to fix things.
And her actions and lack of changes makes me doubt if it's wise to even consider taking her back if the opportunity arises. Maybe I'm afraid to get hurt, or maybe I'm just wiser.

I feel like me detaching should feel good, but right now it feels chit. The question is, am I detaching or just trying to.

And I ramble on...

Together for 8,5 years.
S2
Interest in OM.
She left 29.09.12 b/c we couldn't work things out.
No signs of OM, not digging.
Living in seperate homes, sharing custody.